....that pretty much sums it up *curls up in a ball and cries*


i've done some pretty stupid things lately and it's just taking a toll on me. i've given up on quite a few things i once loved doing. -shrugs-

cleaned my room this morning at about 4am....mel came up after i cleaned and said "holy shit! what happened to all your stuff?!?!?" and i was all "about 99% of what was all over the place was trash. the other 1% was clothes that i hung up and/or folded up." it's amazing how much shit piles up when you have no motivation to do a single thing but be on the pc or go to work to pay the bills. but i had to do it, i was having a panic attack last night when everyone came up into my room to escape our other roommate, who was drunk and annoying >.> i was fine with just mel in my room, cause she knows i'm a fuckin' slob *i'll admit that, especially when i don't care about doing shit* but to have steve and todd in there too....it was making me paranoid. v_v it's not like i had anything to hide *cough*like mel does*cough* i just don't like people in my room without prior knowledge. my stuff is mine *god, i sound like a greedy bitch now* and it's private. i've had in the past, people destroy anything they could get their grubby hands on. >.<


anyway, i digress.


imma go now. kthanxbaibai.


*poofs*